Let it go , let her go , move on. Focus on your studies, enjoy your life, tell us who she was. Everyone kept asking me her name and sad I couldn’t tell anyone.That’s what I’m hearing from past few days There was a reason she came in your life and the way she left. It’s a lesson for you. Don’t trust anyone in such short time. Don’t go to end before you know them completely. Don’t make them your love of life until you know them completely, until you’ve dated them. Until you’ve spent enough time together. Try to see through the heartbreak. There’s more after it. That’s not the end of life. Rise up. You have to succeed. Don’t give up. Focus on your career. Enjoy your life. You’re a great man and you’ll find someone who deserves the love you’re trying to give. This is what all my friends told me. And some of you actually made my day. I’ll share some of replies here because I think everyone should know them.
The very first one I don’t know her much. Let’s just say not at all.
“Is this seriously your own story ? Sorry for asking that but in today’s world I guess it’s kinda rare to find people talking about true love. BTW in my opinion I guess that’s not love , that’s just attraction you can say or jealousy maybe. Because as it’s said love hurts but the one you love,you let them go for the things that makes them happy , you can’t just force someone to stay or love you back. Secondly, weed? Like seriously , be real , this isn’t any film or drama stop watching emotional sastii movies first , isn’t that enough for you that Allah Tallah gave you parents , sibling , true friends, beautiful life ? your life is already complete without her , let her go , and instead of saying that you won’t be able to forget her or replace her please ask Allah, cry to him only, to make things easy for you. For sure, there’ll be someone made for you who’ll love you like you do, purely/deeply, don’t worry , just know your worth man and start loving yourself first, every person,moment,feeling is temporary just don’t get addicted.
BTW sorry for such negativity, but try to live in the reality instead of fantasizing things. But I disagree on one thing?. How do you define love? Because I define it the way I told you. I don’t think attraction and jealousy will cause you this much damage. Attraction is like a crush and it changes, it’s temporary. Right? I know I’ll be able to forget her but healing it takes time. I just can’t tell myself that there was nothing, SHE was nothing. Rushing and resistance only make it worse as far as I know. The only way is through within. And you’re right for the last part we all will get someone who deserves our love..
I’m not just addicted to her, I also love her.
Second reply came from a close friend. ” If something or someone is making you question yourself, you self worth or putting you in doubt that you’re not good enough.
Walk away from it.
No one deserves to feel that way.
Don’t ever let anyone treat you in a way that would make you question your worth.
The one who’s meant for you will see the potential in you and she will be crazy about you. And that feeling will be worth it.
Don’t push things to happen.
Because if it’s meant to be it will be.
Don’t lose yourself in the process.
I guess you’re right about not losing myself in the process. But I wonder maybe, maybe losing myself will do any good. A few words of respect may come out. But nothing comes out of her mouth. I’m just knocking doors to get answers to my fucking questions. But I couldn’t find them. Same old results. Same disappointments. I was starting to fall apart because I can’t find. What happened to you that you’re like this. That you’ve become so cold heart.
Will you ever say someone ” I love you” when you don’t mean it? no, right? But you think it’s bullshit just because one man didn’t loved you the way you deserve it. So you will just say “bullshit” “bkwass”. It’s so easy for you but not for me. Every time I try to move on and it throws me back to the same place. I don’t lock my phone anymore. It’s always unlocked with your conversation opened. I crave you. I crave that maybe you can give me a chance. To keep myself emotionally and mentally on track. I’m trying to stay out with friends. I’m trying to talk to new people. I’m trying to give time to my studies which I’ve neglected a lot. I’m practicing guitar. All these distractions, why? So that I can keep myself away from your thoughts. But no matter how much you block them. They always come back at some point. When heartbreak occurs, you feel like you have lost or you are just like a wounded soldier. You have to pick yourself up and carry all the burden on your shoulders and move. Move because if you stayed, you’re dead. Healing it takes alignment. It takes courage. It requires struggle. I know there is more to the heartbreak but I don’t want to see through it. I just want to stay in this pain and find out why did this happened? Where did I go wrong? Because closure is important. Cry if I had to , moron if I had to but I’ve got to heal. For that maybe I’ve to turn back the time. Time where I didn’t give a shit about love, where studying was first priority, where I didn’t ever smoked a cigarette. And most importantly we were strangers.A good manager I was. But do I owe a time clock? HA! No.
The only choice I have right now is to let you go. Because every breath I take makes me realize how hard it is for me to live without you and I can never have you. I tried at least. So go drift away. Fly wherever you wanna go. Love him until he leaves you like he does all the time. Love until you realize that he was just using you for fun. Come back then and maybe I’d still be waiting. I can say this but then I would be a liar. I’ll try to find someone who won’t let me question my self worth like you did. And someone in the world is always waiting for the kind of love that you’re giving. Open your eyes and search for that person. Hold on to them and never let them go.My only mistake was to love you with a love that you didn’t deserve. Yeah you deserve a person like him who doesn’t even value you. For whom you’re just a trash. In the end I just wish that someday you realize your mistake and you feel the pain that you gave me once. It’s cruelty, right? Then let it be… and If I were YOU , I would never let ME go…
BTW: you have the most beautiful eyes I’ve ever seen…